dating

Maria recommended a book to me a while ago that I was very hesitant to purchase and read. Its called 'How to get a date worth keeping'. I know, a dating book! But ya know what? It cant hurt. The first chapter of the book has told me to not judge a situation before I get into it. Date for fun, date to learn about yourself, others and yourself around others. I think this is a really great idea. I have always felt that I am not cute enough and boys won't see past my horrible looks. I am so delusional. Now, please don't call me narcissistic, but I know I am not bad looking by any means, I just need to get past my own self conscious, destructive behavior before I can allow someone to accept me for me. The book also talks about dating for the sake of dating to get to know what you want. This is my problem not only in my personal life, but also in my professional life; I don't know what I want. In order to figure that out, I need to give a few things a try.

This is my oath, to date. I am a single girl living in one of the greatest cities in the world, so how hard can it really be? I need to open up my mind past my 'type' of guy and learn to relax and talk to everyone, at least within reason.

I joined an online dating site on recommendation from a coworker and am giving that a try. One of my friends from high school is the dating site queen and found her current boyfriend on there, who is an amazing guy who treats her like a queen. So, I'll let you know how that goes.

My first promise is to stop declining invitations to go out. I know I can't go out and party like a crazy person every night of the week, but I can go for a drink after work once or twice or accept an invitation to go out with friends of friends who I barely know on the weekends. I know it seems like I go out a lot, but i really don't and that needs to change.

Here goes........